Every time i go to sleep work socks on, i wake up barefoot. Sock gnomes?
I am ready to learn
Too many emotions to sleep
And having done all to stand, stand.
so so so so so so much
You know my wanderings, put my tears in your bottle, are they not in your book?
something about traffic is so discouraging
Eating cupcakes while i watch people work out
How to party too hard without ever partying
Need more vitamins
No more mister nice guy
Six fifty, feels like midnight
it's weird without you
What i asked for
How we are afraid
Go where you must go
Some days i don't hate my job at all
our heads were pointing east and west, our hands were telling stories
California gray
How to break and how to mend
Quality of living plus five hours of sleep minus eight hours of work, divided by everything, somehow factors out
mind over matter as a matter of fact
the moon is teaching me the meaning of agony
The word flock does not describe the intricacy of birds weaving patterns in the air
The clouds are arranged in such a way, i think that God is happy today
What did you lose?
What did you give?
How long did you wait?
Fall fashion
Regardless of what side you're on, you are still the enemy
Thy
Have not i commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the lord Thu good is with thee whithersoever thou goest
Into the sun
Come over here and sway me like clothes on the line when the wind blows i will make you mine
an "uphill both ways" kind of day
realizing i no longer have a social life and not entirely sure how i feel about it
Redirect, refocus
Wherefore my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath: James 1:19
what have you done lately that is constructive?
Good kids smoking bad weed
I come home late and so very tried but the sky is beautiful tonight
sunday, come for me
She's hanging high tonight and almost full
my head wages a constant battle against the gravitational pull of your shoulder
Magic is happening
Taking the medicine you prescribed me, but it doesn't do a thing. And you're not speaking.
if you want to give up then you can quit. i'll just have to carry you.
Looking down to see I'm walking on the water
all of the strength that i need
i know you understand it all
high tide
body aches, intense emotions, petty arguments
get inside my blood stream
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. -Galatians 6:9
get too far, i will pull you back
my heart swelled up so big
Happy happy joy joy
This is what love has done
At first i was afraid to hope, but now i cannot let go of hope
all of my time
and you can rest beneath my leaves
And they that know thy name (Jesus) will put their trust in thee: for thou, Lord, hast not forsaken them that seek thee. -Psalm 9:10
I walked out into the heat and smiled at the sky
Please don't stop reminding me
every night i look up at the sky
my mother dancing
And i can't stop smiling
The angels in heaven are rejoicing
still, it's not all bad
tonight could not have been a whole lot worse if it had tried. ALMOST OVER. one more shift this week and then i get to sleep
Caffeine will keep you awake but it won't help you think any more clearly
I hope i dream of el salvador
It's all going to be alright
less talk, more action
I wouldn't give up even if i could
regina spektor- "How" exactly. yes. let's cry about it. actually, let's not
Everything works out
miracles happen every day. and that's why i can wait
You make all things new
the longest day, but it ended well
Remain steady
Good things are happening
They looked so stiff in their uniforms
"she'll take your voice and leave you howling at the moon" - bob dylan
lightness. i think this must be right
My heart is not broken, it is growing
It is love that walks beside me. Love that takes my hand and guides me.
but if i cry every night i will laugh every morning. and thus maintain balance. and thus maintain sanity. and thus remain healthy.
i will tell you half of the story: it's been hard lately
You have always been my help, and in the shadow of your wings, my spirit will rejoice.
Fainting spells. My best friend says that makes me a real lady
On the night shift we have a little saying, "welcome to the Hell"
where could i begin? where could I start? where could I turn with such a heavy heavy heart?
more dreams of houses
Too tired to do any of the things that i need to do
Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?
All that i can give
artifacts of love
the distance is good
All that stuff that used to matter
an unconventional man
I dreamt that you were two different men, and i couldn't choose between them
i can't stay mad so i don't
You will know what i mean when i say that i carry these things with me always
All of the things that i tuck away and hide, parade themselves before my eyes in dreams at night
"If you have to die, kill the desires that you have"
to give you hope and a future
"so foolish was i, and ignorant; i was a beast before thee"
Interesting work day. Was inspired by someone and able to encourage someone
you have no hope, you have no faith, you have no passion, you have no love and there is nothing you would fight for. nothing you would die for but the nothingness you create. and you prefer it that way.
Stuff i'm thankful for this morning: fresh fruit, alarm clocks, the rest of the almond milk, tweezers, the joy of the lord is my strength
hard as i try to be a minimalist, it's a waste of time
A day to listen to m. Ward
We're still alive. We get down, we get up. We are passionate.
Work in the morning, work in the evening. Cat naps and coffee. Cookie and me.
Gotta make it through the day
"i will both lay me down in peace and sleep, for thou, lord, only makest me dwell in safety" psalm 4:8
everything got so heavy
everything is wrong but tomorrow i get to sleep in
Well-dressed, thick women in heels. I approve.
This weeks goal: establish a more organized daily devotional time/ schedule
you are a self-fulfilling prophecy
Every beautiful thing i desire for you
One eye on the moon
spend all day sealing up my seems but by night time
they come seeping through the cracks in my cement
and make me weary, make me weary, wear me down
So many stupid little things are bothering me
Countless cooking magazines
A book you may one day like to read- keep
Local poets and classics
will i ever read "gone with the wind" again?
books given to me by ex-boyfriends, and current friends, old text books
dried flowers given to me by ex-boyrfriends
two bags of old clothing, jackets, bridesmaid dresses
cleaning out, cleaning up
maybe i'm changing
not sure why i keep having to explain that i'm okay
songs about mortality
her eyes were glassy and she told me, "Now I am far more happy," without the trace of a smile to lighten her face.
Every day is it's own challenge. Wake up and face it
started making jokes again
over the course of a movie i forgot i was angry
Sparkling french berry lemonade
Griffith park, los angeles
Santa barbara
San luis Obispo
Recipients of wonder
Cleaning a strangers house gives me time to clear my mind.
Smoke alarms. Airport shuttle. City bus.
Breakfast in a hotel
Late night drives and talks about serial killers
Trum the volume down so i can listen to the sky
Ninety three miles to go
Blue slate sea scape
Finally the ocean arrives
I've been down these crooked roads before
Headed north into the sun
The joy of the lord is my Strength
Follow the road as it rolls out before me
Get away from the temple of the moon
where does it go at the end of the day?
all that stuff we want to say
The things we find embarrassing are so stupid
deadular
I'm not staring at you, i'm just people watching and you happen to be the only person around, so i'm watching you
i know it's mean, but i also think it's okay to ignore any guy who calls me "cutie"
What the moon gave me
i would wish for more hope
put some joy in that cup
been sipping on the wrong stuff.
To remain constant throughout change
There are keys, scattered and rusting
There are forgotten rooms locked up inside of you
never quite sure if it's me, or something else entirely
If you start to forget who you are, let me remind you
so much stuff
drowning in your own self-pity. you ignore every rope we throw
I don't want to do anything without you. There is nothing that i want to do.
My fears are running away from me. I am trying to seduce them with carrots
There you go again. Looking at me like i punched you in the stomach
dreamt about another cool house
wanted to see you. instead I went to the mall. occasionally life is lame.
I'm so sad tonight
You simply have to pretend it isn't there
What can you do with such profound loneliness?
You can go ahead and kiss all the boys i liked
I am well acquainted with all of these feelings
Nothing where her body laid
Mother mary does not speak from the grave
Angel dark cloak
Wolf in bird clothe
Now he follow
Mornings are the worst
Can't wait to breath out of my nose again
on second thought, i don't even have that many brains, i should have run out by now
what is all this yellow stuff? i'm pretty sure my brains are coming out of my nose
I said, "do you really think there is anyone capable of breaking my heart?" and then I walked away. like i meant it.
reading between the lines
a series of small pep-talks
I don't get it
Trying to get out of these days
Sometimes i. Ready for a fight.
this is what i want for my life. this is what i've wanted all along
If you've got too much hurt, you've got to let some of it go
Emotional hangover
i hate this
When i know you are unhappy
i also dreamed that he was holding hands with another girl. i dumped a bowl of cereal on both of their heads, grabbed his 7-11 Big Gulp drink and walked away without saying a word
i dreamed that i told him to give me a hug and we both held on for a really long time and i fell asleep
Everyone knows something's amiss
You are in the words i am writing
sometimes i'm too busy to think about it. kind of.
my pulse started racing
express yourself
for the first time, i felt happy
To keep my tongue at bay
always feeling too much
i talk too much because
The best way to cure the night terrors
The lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall i fear? The lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall i be afraid? Psalm 27:1
Be still and know that i am god: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in all earth. Psalm 46:10
good God, it's hard
Or rather, "what's the point?"
Sometimes i feel beautiful. And then i think, "what a waste"
nothing here for me
can't shake the feeling that this isn't the end. so many feelings and i can't shake any of them.
wake up heavy and lay down low
to be so hard
just be okay
every time i think i can't, i can
leaves me so low
It's hard
It's nice
I want all of these things for you
Don't be sad, i know you will - daniel johnston
She said, "sometimes you just need some time." and she should know. She was always crying.
